Reconnecting With Nature — Mecklenburgische Seenplatte{Travel Journal Day 3}

Solitude

As I write these words, I am alone on my canoe, watching the burning sun vanish slowly behind the pine trees. In my hand, I have my pen and my blog, I am writing. On the surface of the, I see the reflection of the gloaming sunset, it looks like there are two horizons, and I feel like I am flying.

Although I had an extraordinary day with my friends canoeing through the nature parks, I needed some time for myself. I wanted recharge and manifest the profound experiences that I made today. Although I seem very extroverted, at heart I am a loner, and being around people too much to a degree is also exhausts me.

Today I learned many things, one of them is that apparently, mosquitos are really into me, good thing malaria is not a thing in Europe. Sleeping on the floor is really a different experience from sleeping in a made bed. My core intention of this trip was to liberate myself from materialism for a few days and to practice poverty.

My thinking was to internalize that the worst condition, which is for many is to have no money and no house is actually not that bad. I am a person who is very driven sometimes, but also very anxious. For me, understanding that the very condition that I feared so much is actually not that bad liberated me to a degree from a process of inner turmoil and fear that was buzzing inside my head for far too long.

The reason that I started to write was that I wanted to portray my weird journey around the world of trying to get my stuff together. I was just tired of messing up and I wanted to start my own pursuit of investigating unhappiness. I wanted to share my findings with the world in order to add some value this way. Hence on this Blog, I will write about habits, tools, books and real-world case studies and adventures that helped me to battle depression.

So while other travel bloggers might focus on the best spots to party, I want to gather natural antidepressants. I want to engineer myself away from lethargy and depression and towards happiness, contribution, and adventure. I feel that If a weirdo with my background manages to overcome his demons and make his dream come true of becoming a digital nomad that this will show others that transformation is possible, necessary even.

Sleeping hungover in a tent however as stoically romantic as it sounds has also its price. Waking up I feel a bit like the guy from full metal jacked who was beaten by the other soldiers with socks full of soap.

My inner demons particularly love mornings, and voices of self-doubt and fear are the loudest when my body is the weakest. For some time I was looking for morning habits in particular that help me to keep those voices in check, or at least turn the volume down a bit.

So I was walking around the camp, looking like a zombie from the walking dead, lethargic and moody.

Freedom

My friend spots this and insists, that instead of showering I need to swim in the cold lake first thing in the morning, naked, free willy style.

I have no choice he tells me.

As my friend pulls down his shorts he walks/dangles into the lake majestically. I told u guys in the last article that my buddy looks like Patrick Swayze from point break, and I don’t know why but everything he does looks kinda cool. I am the opposite. If there would be a goof scale I would be the end of it.

So I pull down my pants also and run giggly like a little girl(a 2m and 105 kilos little girl) into the cold water.

What follows is a profound experience of freedom. My body and mind are refreshed, renewed even. I am unable to think, I am just there.

I decide to backstroke slowly, and as I dip my head into the water, I unplug. As I dip my ears in the water and glide slowly backwards, the only thing that I hear is the lake, my own breath, and my heartbeat. It feels like I am floating in space.

I am fascinated by this simple but deep experience. Diving into a world far away from my normal daily trance of paying bills, worrying, and stressing out about if other people like me or not.

As I float in this lake my eyes wander around the all surrounding pine forest. I feel at home. I can’t help but think about the many people who are plagued by pain and depression that could be healed here. What if the epidemic of global unhappiness is founded by our lost connection to nature.

What if the missing puzzle piece for treating depression and suffering lies in nature. Modern psychological medicine is always looking for new ways to treat people. But what if the direction is wrong, what if we need to look backwards.

As I swim in the cold lake, I dive into the green water, I stop breathing. My Emotions stop. I am just surviving. There is no conditioned mindset in my brain anymore today, I am free.

 

 

Comments 2

  • Roswitha Maraite

    August 5, 2018

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    Thanks dear Daniel ,
    Love and Hugs ..
    Take time each day to look at your life with
    thankfulness and as a gift to enjoy.
    I love the way you are writing. wow
    look to the fucture. Know that eevery quetion you have and every plan you make, there is a tomorrow that will hold you gently in its arms. You will find the answer you seek. Love Hugs my Son . Love you always..

  • Daniel

    August 5, 2018

    Reply

    Hey! Thank you! This means a lot to me. <3 Thank you for inspiring me to live the life of a vagabond. Yes at a certain point I feel things will fall into place. Just gotta have some trust.

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